august,22nd,2011
monday
mood: depressed, aggravated, tired,tearfull
Dear,journal
needless to say today is my b-day woopie fucking doo what a birthday half the peaple i care about totaly forgot and dint even wish me happy birthday and besides a few happy b-days here and there nobody treated me any different any nicer or anything and its really very depressing all i wanted for my b-day was to get to go out just me and my mom maybe my step-dad and the kids. But no i couldnt even get that kinda sad really. I mean i know the money is tight but they could have at least said well we will go out when we get paid or anything like that not this and now i want to cry its really sad and i hate it. I shouldnt be sad on my b-day and i know im being kinda selfish but we always do something on my b-day always even if its just getting a bite to eat and getting a cheap gift like last year i just got a movie and then on top of it all my sister is being a total crab ass no offence amber but yer acting like yer all that and if something isnt goig for u then who gives a shit and thats not right. And thats why im aggravated. i hate that when peaple act all stuck up like get off yer high fucking horse and take a look at reality the world does not revolve around u honey sorry to burst yer sassy little bubble and niether does mine i got more important things to worry about then u like my life my kids and what im gonna do with it.
Anyhow enough with the heavy. the kids go back to there dads wendsday and im kinda glad but kinda deppressed at the same time i mean my baby is starting school this september 6th and i wont even be there to wish her luck and it makes me wanna cry really bad. I really hate my life all i can hope for to this life is a little bit of a happy ending but i doubt it. I cant wait to get away from all this shit and focus on me.
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